Samantha thinks she is too ordinary for Anton to have a crush on her, yet they seem to be drawn to each other a lot. She ponders whether to let herself go or not, live differently or stay the same. Doubting the credibility of history books, sinking into the dreariness of winter, and getting excited about her first potential date… if she says “yes.”
Maybe part of me does not to believe that from all the other girls at school he likes me… I am so plain, and straightlaced and boring… I don’t wear makeup, I’ve never had a boyfriend, and I don’t really go out that much… I don’t have very many interesting things to say and I stay away from drama stories… I am quiet and contained… Yet, I have so much passion inside… The nights are getting colder, my evening time on the balcony is almost over. I love walking to school in the morning and seeing the leaves of the trees turn color. I guess if I want something to be different, I need to do something that is different… instead of running away from everybody that likes me… Part of me wants to have a boyfriend and part of me is terrified by the idea… Should I let go of control? The respiratory systems is so amazing! We, humans, are walking miracles. Biology test tomorrow… not looking forward to it. I am so much better at math.