Higher

When two people in a relationship are moving at a different pace and one of them has learned all their lessons…

I feel that deep down inside Hugh is afraid to be fully seen because he thinks he is unlovable as he is. He is terrified to look at his wounded inner child and when I get closer he puts the guard high up and acts out. It’s exhausting to spend so much effort to love someone. I’ve known him for so long, I see his pain, but he pretends that it does not exist and he hides behind work, staying busy, saving others and drinking. All I want is to be close and hold his hand. All I end up doing is patching up surface scratches and never being allowed to address the deeper hurt.