The Shadow

Sophia’s deep soul yearning will not let go of her. Something about Dylan keeps calling her and it is too strong to ignore, making her question her whole carefully constructed reality…

I get up, do yoga, have breakfast, go to work, eat lunch, come home, make dinner, talk with my finacé, we watch a show together, we snuggle, we fall asleep and the thought of Dylan and our kiss stays with me. Every gesture, every look, every word of his imprinted in my mind and replaying in loops. Daydreaming is becoming my normal state of mind, reality a version of life in which my body moves automatically. He is making me seriously reconsider my existence and the meaning of it. When I get married everything will become even more predictable than now and this probability terrifies me. My finacé is an amazing, kind-hearted, gentle man however I don’t think he is willing to go deeper into himself and explore what is there. The shadow is what we all fear, all the unpleasant thoughts and feelings we harbor. Some people reject it completely, but we are comprised of all things good and bad and we cannot ignore it. What we act on by choice makes us into who we are. Is this what I am doing right now? Exploring my shadow?