The Deal

The night when without much ado Sara dives into her dark side…

How is it possible for my life to turn around in just a couple of hours? I cannot believe I did this!? Created a royal mess. I don’t think I can even quite comprehend what happened…? So surreal… It is as if I went down the rabbit hole into a whole different world that I have been curious about but would have never dared venture… Maybe if I write it down it will make more sense… or disappear, one of the two…wow…

Your Song {Song of Songs}

A song-inspired Love Verse to My Dream Lover, using only song titles. My mind loves to make connections between things and layer them… For a link to the playlist, begin from the end…

A Dream Is a Wish Your Heart Makes.
Re:member,
Unfold
Again.
Sweet Thing,
Are You The One That I’ve Been Waiting For,
The Man I Love?
Mysterious Ways
Counting Stars
Couldn’t Sleep
A Thousand Years
Wishin’ & Hopin’
Heaven Help
Justify My Love.
I’ll See It Through.
I Put a Spell on You
It Will Come Back
My Moon My Man
Good For Me.
Lovesong,
You Make Me Feel,
Sweetest Thing.
Deeper Than Shallow,
Chocolate,
I Melt With You.

Let Me Blow Ya…

… mind… what did you think? Not that kind of girl… or am I? I guess we can only guess… why define me, when we can have so much fun with no walls attached to a box… Wide open, my mind likes to wander… enjoy…

major revelation: you are creating your own reality, for realz

New Passion {Samantha 4/10}

Samantha is entertaining the idea of the new boy at school. She think she might be too boring for him, but his personality intrigues her. She has read a lot, but does not dare live the life of her imagination yet. Something in her attracts men intensely, yet the same thing she fears might be the demise of them… To follow desire or not?

We like each other… there is something… the new boy and I. Anton. He has very kind deep smiling eyes… and a particular spark I have in mine… That would not be wise, though. It’s better if we are just friends. I do get slightly nervous around him, in a good way. He is interesting, maybe that’s it. Different from everybody else I know. I like different. Probably because he has grown up somewhere else. I am really boring – I don’t drink, I don’t smoke, I don’t use curse words, I don’t like to go out that much… Most of the time I would rather stay at home and read. I used to spend so much time at the library. First I read all the children’s books. Then I moved on to adventure novels, about cowboys and Indians, travel, foreign lands and brave hearts. Next were mysteries – Agatha Christie and Sir Arthur Conan Doyle. I’ve always thought I’d make a great detective. Maybe I just need to be a little more observant. Then it was a little bit of everything   – classics, contemporary novels, and even some Harlequin romances. Now I’ve been done with fiction for a while and I have been enjoying books on nutrition and psychology. The way people think is so fascinating… I love how two people can experience the exact same thing but tell it in completely different ways. Is seeing things objectively even possible?

Deep and Particular {Samantha 3/10}

Samantha dreams of her rebel prince and continues to live deep down inside her imagination. She turns to books for inspiration and in hopes to find who she is and a world that resembles her own. She explores different possibilities in her mind of how her life can turn out to be, but none satisfy her. High school starts again and so does the life of routine and pretend. Luckily, she has great friends.

The life that I have is so quiet on the surface and so deep on the inside… I never talk about the latter, it’s just for me. But this is where I truly live. In the folds and facets of my imagination, where there is love, and passion, and work that is going to change the world. A connection to something so strong… My pince is more like a rebel. It’s funny, because everybody thinks I am such a good girl. I know it’s the role I am supposed to play right now. Yet, eventually, other parts of me are going to come out. There is so much emotion that has no outlet. Everything is so ordinary… that’s why I read so much. In hopes to understand who am I and what I want by familiarizing myself with imaginary worlds depicted in words. I don’t understand dating someone. I guess it is a way of getting to know them. How can you get to know another if you do not know yourself yet? Can you ever know another, especially if they don’t know themselves yet? Maybe the reason I don’t want to have a boyfriend is because I would rather date myself at this point… there is so much of me to uncover and dream into being

Love the Thorns

All seeming opposites go together… unite them within and bless the lessons…

misfortune {not what is seems}

Allow and Be Free

What does freedom mean to you? Do you feel free? Liberate yourself…

freedom

Fruit Loops

What do you think about when you wake up in the morning? I think about fruit salad and I wonder what he tastes like…

the secret to a good fruit salad {wait for it}

Longing and Wishing {Samantha 1/10}

Meet Samantha. Her summer nights are spent sitting on the balcony ledge, dreaming of something far away and elusive. She pushes the boys that like her away, fascinated by living in her imagination. Never dreams of a wedding, but longs for true love.

What is it that keeps me up at night? The heat? Sitting on the balcony ledge, feeling the cool breeze caress my skin, I know it’s something else… elusive… empty… enchanting… ephemeral… Maybe the night sky has my answer…? Or maybe I am not yet to know? It’s a pull of some kind… Mysterious and mine. I should go in and try to fall asleep. Something deep inside me longs to be expressed but cannot find its way out… Restless