there are so many things we never talk about…
why do we doubt?
hesitation breeds stagnation…
decision
signifies
movement
what will come out of this?
why does something have to come out?
we look outside for all we think we need, but we feel on the inside…
enter
here
now
wellcome
let’s explore together what’s in there…
perspective: the body as vessel for the soul’s expression/creative play
how to use it?
what else comes with it?
my body is miraculous?
my soul even more so?
show me!
ok!
let’s go!

***
do you know that feeling when you sit on your leg/foot for too long and it goes numb? the tingling that comes after you start moving your limb again and the circulation gets going – so painful at first yet exhilarating. from half-dead it becomes alive again.
maybe we are the same way… maybe there are parts of us inside that have been lying dormant for so long for we have buried them deep and they have become numb… the circulation of attention never wants to go there, because it knows that there will be pain… and then blood… and then tingling and aliveness… wait, what? is that how it works? if i allow myself to go where i always fear to go {inside myself} and face the pain/feel it all, the numbness will hurt a lot at first, but only because it’s coming back to life? hmmm…
excavation
of stagnation
numb – succumb
feel – for real
pain – you gain
repeat again
reclaim
allow
this
is
the
how
*
part
partial
whole
hole
inside
we
go
find
what
feels
numb
{but if it’s numb, i cannot feel it???? how do i find what i cannot feel/don’t know is there??????}
the
pain/irritation
anger/grief
hesitation/indignation
defense/offense
when
something
rubs
you
the
wrong
way
don’t
suppress
it
succumb
instead
of
numb
give in…

***
she arrived in the same way she departed…
asymmetrical
not quite put together
or slightly too perfect
almost impossible to behold