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DEEP DIVE: SHAME
Shame shrinks a manโs self-worth. Shame erodes his confidence. Shame keeps him repeating old patterns because he subconsciously believes he is the pattern.
Shame traps him in a loop:
Fear โ avoidance โ self-betrayal โ guilt โ shame โ fear again
And the deeper the shame, the more the man fears repeating the mistakes of his past โ which ironically pulls him back into the very behaviors he wants to leave behind.
This is the old paradigm masculine cycle: unconsciousness, self-blame, fear of failure, emotional shutdown, repetition.
Forgiveness is the only force strong enough to break that cycle/generational cycles of deeply embedded shame.
Forgiveness + Courage + Responsibility = Masculine Liberation
Forgiveness is not passive. It is an act of courage, authority, and inner leadership.
Men are not taught how to hold their desire โ only how to hide it, fear it, or lose control to it.
For thousands of years, male sexuality has been shaped by shame, repression, and confusion. Women have been turned into screens for menโs projections, and men have been turned into strangers to their own erotic nature.
Modern culture did not only distort the masculine relationship to desire โ it distorted the feminine relationship to power. Many women learned early that attention, safety, resources, or influence could be gained by becoming an object of desire rather than an embodied subject. Over time, erotic life-force was externalized, stylized, marketed, and performed โ no longer lived as truth, but displayed as image.
This is not feminine power. It is feminine energy filtered through the male gaze โ a mirror instead of a source.
Celebrity culture, glamour, and hyper-sexualized imagery reward this distortion, reinforcing the illusion that seduction equals sovereignty. In reality, it keeps both men and women trapped: men chasing projections, women performing identities, neither meeting in presence.
True erotic power is not manipulative, strategic, or performative. It is quiet, grounded, and unmistakably real. It does not seek โ it radiates.
When a man does not know how to be at home in his desire, that desire becomes a burden carried by the women around him.
Lust itself is never the problem. Lust becomes distorted only when it is fused with fear, guilt, and shame. In that lower vibrational state, desire becomes chaotic, compulsive, and externalized โ placed onto women instead of held within the self. But when desire rises through the body โ through breath, heart, and consciousness โ it transforms. Lust, when mixed with love, awareness, and soul, becomes Eros: sacred, powerful, embodied life force.
Excerpt from my book, “The Sovereign Man”
THE TIME IS NOW! LET'S KEEP CO-CREATING THE NEW EARTH TOGETHER, LOVING OURSELVES, LOVING ONE ANOTHER, LOVING THE PLANET AND HONORING ALL!
P.S. All of my self-portraits from AS WITHIN, SO WITHOUT are available for free download on Unsplash for New Earth architects and whoever else enjoys ๐ Due credit is always appreciated ๐
time traveling,
unravelingโฆ
iโll take you there
your chest, my hair.
uncovering
all the places we have been
together and apart,
the truths within -
one from the start.
your eyes -
unfold meโฆ
your arms -
just hold meโฆ
your hands -
unmold meโฆ
your mouth -
slowlyโฆ
my eyes -
they know you
my lips -
they call you
my hands -
explore you
my world,
iโll show youโฆ
soul of the soul:
you and me,
whole.
love making love:
you in me,
free.
heart to heart:
you as me,
see.
deep calls to deepโฆ
you
hear
me
โค๏ธ
the desireย
deep down insideย
for an elusive essence
of the man Iโve never met
who is mine
by divine right.
unquenchable thirst,
hunger that can never be satisfied,
blissful madness
not of this world
but in it
to birth a new one.
all for love.
so much loveโฆ
outpouring
like molten lava
dissolving all barriers
into oneness.
one soul
two bodies
alwaysย
youinme.
I woke up at 3am the other night to allow this insight through … enjoy!
Sexualityโพ๏ธ.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~โพ๏ธSpirituality
Our sexuality can serve as a doorway to spirituality and through making love to another human being we can get a realization of oneness/have a profound spiritual awakening. In the moments of intense presence when time and space disappear we can experience our true selves - namely, pure awareness. The two bodies merged as one, the polarity united in singularity. Thus lovemaking becomes a sacred act, a meditation, a doorway to the divine, nurturing enlightenment, a deeper connection, mental, physical and emotional well-being. Itโs an opportunity for constant renewal - all agendas and techniques disappear, giving way to pure presence, sensitivity, sensuality, playfulness, awareness. We do not come together for a particular end/to reach orgasm, but to simply enjoy one another and celebrate our humanity and divinity. Making love is a beautiful flow of energy, a sweet surrender to simply being and allowing the doing to happen in its own for the bodies can feel their own rhythm and inner wisdom and they know how to move/what to do. Just like dancing or playing music, the enjoyment is in the act and when orgasm happens itโs a blissful high followed by a mellow calm that can be sparked by a single touch to another blissful high. This can only happen when both individuals have done the inner work to be completely free of any shame, guilt, fear and other negative conditioning around sexuality/the natural human body and can fully embrace and accept themselves and the other. There is a sweetness and sacredness to making love in pure awareness that is beyond words, opening doorways to other worlds/planes of existence, bringing more light and love to the Earth, and anchoring these new energies in the body as our beautiful miraculous vessel for experiencing this physical reality of seeming separation and duality. Sex between enlightened conscious partners is a most natural and effortless transcendence of the limitations of form and rebirth into embodied expanded awareness - again and again, to no end. When two powerful energetic streams of life force merge together in love and presence, they propel the collective evolution of consciousness through downloading, channeling and emitting higher vibrations and frequencies. Gradually bliss becomes a sustained state that can be revisited/experienced at any time, for itโs the truth if who we are. Hear it here.
This came through me the other day, hear it here.
Making love to a woman who embodies her true nature, which is Love, is a creative experience of dissolution of the ego/limited self, merging into oneness, remembering our divinity and coming back reborn anew. The womb symbolizes the formlessness out of which everything arises, and being inside of it one is nurtured, nourished, replenished and enriched with new potentials and possibilities. It is a blissful opportunity to shed thoughts, feelings, beliefs and ideas which no longer serve us and re-emerge with new inspiration, direction and drive. Knowledge is dead and static, knowing is alive and constantly flowing. A woman in touch with her true nature is like nature - constantly changing, expanding, evolving, in tune with the ebb and flow of the life-death-life cycles (through her own menstrual cycle), balanced, harmonious, radiant. Touching her body and being immersed in it is like bathing in the waters of a warm mineral spring - the more love and care you put into her, the more will be returned to you, for she multiplies it all.
I have dreamt of/yearned for true love my whole life, and kept getting closer and closer. When I started this blog, I had completely devoted myself to following Love and being a channel for Source. I knew that true love must exist and the place to look for it would be not in a person/place/deity outside, but within – this site has been the product of my artistic search/self-inquiry. Having finally completed my hero’s journey, I can present you with the simplest of discoveries. True Love IS REAL and simply means to be true to one’s nature, which is Love. It’s simple, but it requires constant remembering/practice/embodiment. When you are TRUE to yourself and move from the LOVE that you are, you are connected to all which is you/Love. Most people, however, are not awake to/aware of their true nature, and that’s the purpose of a Buddha – to shine more light on the darkness of ignorance/forgetting through their presence/awareness/energy. True Love is always shared/available, for we are never separate, yet you need to be aware/awake enough to stay tapped into that vibrational frequency and feel it even amidst seeming separation. When you hold/are it, you allow others to have glimpses of awakening/enlightenment/remembering and to experience their true nature through you. Nature and animals greatly help us with this, for they are true to their nature/show unconditional love.

Of course, sharing true love with another awakened being who you also happen to be attracted to and have matching personalities is the true dream that everyone has – very doable/possible when you do the inner work of remembering/uncovering your true nature first ๐ So the questions are: Are you TRUE? Are you LOVE? Are you embodying it? What was found had never been lost…
I felt like turning my NFT collection into YouTube shorts, because I love these Anaรฏs Nin quotes so much and there’s the added element of music/my voice. Enjoy the videos and the introspection they invite ๐
Hello dear soul friends! I’ve been more on YouTube these days, sharing the poetry that comes through me – visual & verbal. Playlists below – enjoy! <3
Beyond definitions and identities, the real you shines. Namaste, beautiful soul.
Drop it -
The masks
The fear
The unworthiness
The not-enough
The almost there
The anxiety
The chase
The game
The battle
The guilt
The shame
The struggle
The constant questioning
The perfect image
The imperfect self
The past
The future
The mind
The being right
The preferences and opinions
The many unconquered dominions.
I want you{r} naked
Now.
To our divinity
We bow.
Resolve
To Dissolve.
in a perfect world everybody would be seen, loved, heard. so create your perfect world: see, love, hear what's within: embrace the image in the mirror & hold it dear. only when you do it for you you can do it for me too! that's how we connect in truth in love with respect.
Feeling called to share my sensual experience of the world in 1-min videos – “Sensual Exploration with Ava” – on YouTube! ๐โ๏ธ๐งโโ๏ธ Let’s explore our wondrous 5 senses together – touch, taste, hear, smell, see with me! You can follow along and copycat – like a scavenger hunt! It only takes a minute of presence a day, planning to do it for 30-days and then we shall see ๐ป
sensing
energetic
signature
sweet
sensual
passionate
soul
poetry
confined
in
rusty
armor
of old
storiesโฆ
fingertips
tracing
rough
edges
volcano
eager
to erupt
but determined
to stay
dormantโฆ
sharp
lava
leaves
paper cuts:
enough
blood.
leaving
rugged
terrain
behind
for
new
pages
of valleys
and water
words
worlds
meandering
gently
ever
so
freely
feeling
flowersโฆ
the bodies
know.
{smooth surfaces}
I love books and sharing them, so I decided to start a Book Club!! First book is “The Book of Qualities” by J. Ruth Gendler – pairing her beautiful personified descriptions of human qualities with simple daily moments in short YouTube videos. Enjoy and follow along if you are enjoying ๐
the heroโs journey/adventure quest redefinedโฆ initiation/finding Life-Death-Life Cycle after cycle The seeker Follows Truth/Love Open, trusting, forward moving Shiny objects/illusions Distractions/disguises The simple obscured The false worshiped Pierce forth With your sword Annihilate the old Courage to discern Perseverance to act Knowing to see without seeing Brave Bold Blissful Boundless Being New horizons expand Uncharted, your true land. - Ava Sol
Maybe life is like exploring a new place
the museums
the shops
the cafes
the restaurants
the bars
the parks
the mountains
the beaches
the attractions
the clubs
the spas
the wineries
the alleys
the busy streets
the tourist traps
the obscure local dives
the photo ops
the accidental finds
the fancy
the mundane
the well-trodden path
the rough terrain
the sweet
the sour
and the like
the trending
the forgotten
the bizarre
up
down
left
and right
the sunset
and the morning light
so much to seeย
and smellย
and taste
to take in
to experience
to revel in
to grace.
and then
โฆ
your face. a memory of long ago it has always been you Iโve longed to explore. in out and all the way through. new vistas new landscapes a sacred vision come true.
this is bliss.
How do you feel about expressing your joy? Can you fully do it? What does it mean to feel our feelings? All of them? Deeply too… and share them… profound realizations ensue {which are so simple, that it’s funny} ๐
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are we afraid of dying or of living? – or of both for the same reason? – do you expand with life or shrink from it? – facing the unknown and plunging boldly into it…
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My 2 cents on how to get enlightened and then embody it, if you choose/wish … ๐
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Embrace Lust Dissolve in Love Don't deny Don't shy away. Welcome. Face it all. Stay. Body Balance Soul. Feel Intuit Know. No rush Open heart Go slow. Descend to Ascend.
My reflection In your eyes.
from the cradle to the grave… a deep contemplation on life, oneness, the human experience, soul calling, soul searching, journeying without only to return within, love, and, and, and… I was really feeling it ๐
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curiously everyone else seems to know what you are supposed to do… the question is do you allow others to run your show or do you direct it yourself?… follow your heart… or don’t… the choice is yours…
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poised, relaxed, at ease. sitting quietly, just breathe. open up, feel: whole, complete. all comes at the right time. every moment is sublime.
posing the question differently elicits a different view and a different answer… what if you are not a human on a spiritual journey, but a spirit on a human adventure?… let’s explore and different perspective together…one of ease, experiments, experiences and excitement… moving away from striving to become into allowing to be…
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good morning {picture me drinking lemon water, no coffee just yet, enjoying the sunshine) – hello spirit playing the human game – the tree of knowledge, welcome to the world of duality, now start classifying everything into good and bad – what if all opposites comprise a whole – stay present with all and know it all shall pass – open yourself up to living – from a critic to creator – the world as a reflection of what is inside of you – let’s be brave and feel our uncomfortable e-motions – acknowledge them, allow them to move through and give way for magic to happen – somehow it all comes down to self observation, presence and letting go/feeling it all – no special techniques needed – you got what it takes, naturally – look inside you and you will see – just believe and you can be whoever you want to be – {this can be song lyrics} – make the unconscious conscious {sing this as a jingle at the end of a commercial} – might as well have fun with it ๐
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sharing my novel concept called “leaking lust” – what is a huge turn off for me – connecting to our natural aliveness – letting shakti flow without considering it an invitation – energy never lies – own your sexuality and treat it sacredly – the importance of presence – do you always have an agenda or are you able to be sensitive to each moment – leaking lust, seeking fast gratification and seduction games might get you sex, but there is so much more beyond that – melting into true intimacy beyond gender roles and expectations – all comes down to authenticity and being aware of oneself – you might think I am trying to seduce you and you will be right: to seduce you into meeting/accepting/knowing/loving yourself by sharing my experience and natural expression with you ๐
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does life have meaning? – the eternal question as seen through my perception…
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relationships with others – relating to everything – the relationship with self as a mirror to all other relationships – are you looking for an intimate relationship because of fear of being alone/face yourself – do you seek others to avoid yourself – lack is not a very stable foundation – turn within and see what’s there – how to develop a good relationship with self – what are your needs and can you fulfill them – the good, the bad and the ugly – feel it all – love it all – and more…
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for a moment detach and observe – what is death – how do we treat it – what is birth – how many ways are there to raise a baby – do we know anything – how much of what we do makes no sense at all – is there right or wrong – what if all is a creative expression and anything goes – like cooking – we use the same ingredients and mix them up in a multitude of ways – can you live many lives in one – steer your imagination in the direction you like – you attention is the key – become new or stay the same – your life is a creative expression – make it art
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the cycles of change/growth – feeling off – discontent – invitation for expansion – presence – awareness – feeling it all – consciousness – transmuting energy and alchemy – maybe it’s not about making sense but simply perceiving and experiencing
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what is spirituality? – can it be that we already have it? – sharing with you how I have been experiencing – it starts with a nudging feeling that there is something more than this – and then you go exploring – embracing it all – no right or wrong way to do it – you can have fun and express it creatively – surely it will be messy, but why not? – stay open – only you know how to be you
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taking you all across the board of creation/my mind because this is what I think about before I go to bed… the masculine/feminine energies – the conscious and subconscious mind – coming into balance/wholeness – embracing your body/sexuality – how vitally important your thoughts/feelings are – nothing is good or bad, it’s how you use it – focused energy with aligned intention results in creation – decide what you want and believe you already have it – it can be abstract, like love, truth, peace, freedom – change starts within – and so much more… ๐
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are you the main character in your life or a victim of circumstance? – what programs are you running on? – so many different realities are possible – what you believe is true for you and you find evidence for it – creation starts from inside out, not the other way round – you just might be the center of your world, knowingly or not… – “we accept the reality of the world with which we are presented”… or we change it consciously if we do not like it and create one that we love… you’ve got the power, use it wisely
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what do you mean when you say “I love you”… I am really going deep with this one, but that’s where I want to be met… take it slow, go at your own pace, but keep moving closer toward Self
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it is that simple...
change – such a fascinating topic – life is change – being in the flow = accepting things as they come – surrender to the current – give up the need to control the outside – life becomes more like a dance/song – moving with your inner rhythms – may look strange on the outside – have you seen The Green Beautiful?- watch it, it’s so good – why do we do the things that we do when so many of them are completely unnatural? – why don’t we all have fruit trees in our yard/public spaces? – “new” ideas take time to break through/be accepted, because they require change – comfort/habit/laziness/fear of the unknown/pride/power makes us want to cling to old ideas/ways of doing things – so much of our old paradigm is in need of dire change, and we are slowly but surely going through it – as within, so without – be gentle with yourself and your pace – when you truly have the desire/motivation you will change accordingly -take it easy – focus on yourself and be the observer – patience and practice makes real – I see you, beautiful human, you are Life personified – rock on the divine spark that you are! ๐
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how far can you go? – will you go down low? – truth is always present but how much are we ready to see depends on our own free will – not everyone wants to face their deepest shadows and that’s ok – go with your own pace, follow your own gut feeling – honor and respect others – everyone is exactly where they need to be – when one is ready to wake up they will – you energetically connect with the ones you vibe on the same frequency with, no need to argue with the ones who do not – be gentle – all is you – live your life as you see fit and allow others to do the same – we are as free as we want to be
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why we do the things that we do – so many ways to explain it – depends how you look at it – what program are you running on – do you know you have a choice? – now you do! – oh, the places you will go – feel it out – freeing your mind can be scary – sort though your beliefs and keep the ones that feel good – difficulties provide contrast and we can choose to become wiser through them – let go of the past – start thinking about what you want – what are you thinking and feeling before you fall asleep? – that’s who you become – all is states/moods – feel the wish fulfilled and discover you have all within – repetition must be the mother of learning… ๐
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exploring the fascinating nature of reality based on long-held thought forms solidified in the form of beliefs – which ones to discard, which ones to keep? – sharing my experiential experimental views on the subject
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“Alice in Wonderland” – a journey of self-awareness and empowerment – so many layers in art for us to uncover – it’s all in your subconscious – how far will you go – it’s your choice weather you will face yourself – will you go down the rabbit hole to become whole? – remember your muchness – fear, doubt and insecurity are the enemy within – watch it closely until it vanishes – unfold your potential – it might intimidate others – do it anyway, embody your authentic self – all is imagination – go gladly mad – follow your intuition – create your wonderland
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the best relationship you will ever have – on the gifts of aloneness – face yourself, plunge into the darkness, allow transformation to take place, ascend, receive your gifts and come back reborn – what you are looking to receive, find within – sit with yourself, get to know who you are – accept it all – so much wealth inside of you… – give from overflowing – it takes some digging, but it’s so worth it – will you take the dance of self discovery? – when you establish a good relationship with Self all other relationships bloom and you discover there is no other…
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how conditioning happens – your mind is like a sponge – what are you absorbing – sift through and choose consciously what to keep – the matrix as a framework – understanding brings wisdom – you can follow the program most do or push the boundaries and consciously create – automatons get boring – artists and inventors bring in new ideas – the middle ground: learn the rules and then expand – follow the inner feeling – define yourself as you like and do not be confined by outward agreements – the only person standing in your way is you – from limitation to freedom – everyone at their own pace – the power of myth and story – we are re-creating the same old differently – so many ways to combine the same basic elements – direct your own movie if you have the courage to live your dreams – observe yourself and do it consciously through the power of intention – allow yourself to be conditioned by others or brainwash yourself and re-condition yourself as you like – choose your mental and emotional diet accordingly – experiment with it, be aware and notice the results yourself – never take my word for it – try it –
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are you staying on the well-trodden path or taking the road less traveled and creating your own way? – no right or wrong, simply what you want and do you have the courage to go after it – will you allow the outside world to define you and demand your attention or decide who you are and be that deliberately?
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There is no fear in love… time for the power of love to shine upon the love for power… it’s the natural course of things… consciousness expanding… we attract what we are… resonance…. suddenly the world makes perfect sense… ask from within yourself… you deserve it all, for you are it…
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what are you ignoring?- open up your awareness – conscious perception and creation – life as a creative act, playful and multifaceted – can you trust and allow life to express itself through you?
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power and destiny – force:trying to take someone else’s power away; power: inner connection to source – there is only one power and we are expressions of it/are it – divine paradox – self awareness is key – then, tap into co-creation – true change in society begins with individual change – the collapse of the old so the new can rise – the quest for truth – no one can have power over you unless you allow them to – learn to work with your mind and your triggers – what is destiny – a particular destination? – aligned thoughts + feelings + focus = will get you to your particular destination – are you allowing lots of destructions (fear, doubt, insecurity, outward “drama” begging for your attention – do you think your soul has an outline of your optimal journey/experiences you came to have – have you been learning your lessons – the future is created in the now – {my belly is rumbling a lot} – are you the operant power or are you easily swayed by what goes on on the outside – do you trust your inner knowing? – you are enough/whole – add to your “I am” whatever you like and go for your dreams – believe
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inviting you to do some self inquiry – ******spoiler alert****** – telling you what i have found – there is no you – yes, scary and liberating at the same time – all is mind/imagination – self love becomes obsolete for your Self is Love – hmmm… – finding the sweet spot (as in balance, not sure what you were thinking) – owning your light and your darkness (for they are one too) – all is a story – there is no fiction/all is fiction – use your imagination to construct the scene you desire – expand through your true desires – express yourself – use your emotions, love them all, feel deeply, and choose how you want to feel – rise in love, stay there – enjoy your divinity in a human expression ๐
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